Monday, August 17, 2015

Playing Catch(up)

I’ve been quiet for a while so I guess I should catch up.

I have quit running and biking. Well, not so much quit as taken a hiatus. While riding my bike one afternoon I suffered from heat exhaust. Not surprising since it was 102⁰ with high humidity. The heat exhaustion lead to a migraine that lasted 6 days. I decided that I needed to put my health first and although running and biking are healthy, I will get no benefits from it if I am dead. Once the temps finally get back down to the lower 90’s, I will slowly resume working out outside. To ensure that I do not slack off, I went ahead and signed up for a 5K on October 17th. That gives me two months to get ready. It is supposed to rain all this week but be clear and low 90’s next week so hopefully I can get some time in then.

I did go jogging one night with my friend Pricilla. Well, I walked more than I jogged but I did do some jogging so I am considering it a victory! We only went about 1 ½ miles but it is more than I have done in over a month.

Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Just Park It

I am at Freedom Park and I just finished a few miles on my bike. As I'm sitting here on my phone I realize how disconnected we have become as a society.  Disconnected from nature, from each other, from ourselves. We can't go to a park without having a phone in our hands or ear buds in our ears. The birds are singing and the cicadas are humming but it is being drowned out by some (for lack of a better word) asshole blasting his rap music from his car. The air smells clean until I ride through a cloud of another wonderful person's cigarette smoke (which is illegal in Mecklenburg County parks). So now I will quit being a hypocrite, put down my phone, and get back on my back and back to enjoying nature.

Monday, June 8, 2015

Catching Up on Old Times

I reread a bunch of my blog posts recently  and I figured I should do an update just incase there is someone out there following this.

Last year I endured one of the most emotional experiences in my life and another situation that was one of the most physically painful. I have used these experiences to push myself and I believe I have come out the other side a better person, though scarred.
My company gave discounts for anyone that wanted to join Weight  Watchers. Three of my coworkers signed up and tried to talk me into it as well. I have never been one who believes in dieting; portion control is what I feel is best along with exercise. Dieting often leads to binging later.
It started slow, a comment here and there and eventually started coming almost daily. They would get there little "calculators" out and tell me how many points were in my food. I politely asked them to stop as I was not part of the program and I mentioned the problem to my boss. It continued for two more months. One day, when I was home on vacation, I received a picture text of a fat girl eating brownies telling me how many points were them. I lost it. Not only had I put up with this for three months at work but now they were harassing me at my house. I went to work the next day and told my boss that one more comment and I would go to HR. She got mad and told me I was being a baby that we all need to lose weight. Oh, I guess that makes it ok.
For the next month my coworkers wouldn't speak to me. Not only the ones harassing me, but my boss and several others as well. I talked to my boss' boss about it. The first thing he asked was if in wanted to go to HR because he thought I had a case. I didn't want to make things worse. All I ever wanted was for it to stop. He said he would talk to my boss about how she handled it and although she never apologized, she did state that she could see how I could take it as harassment.
Nearly 4 weeks after the shunning had begun, on August 8th, I was in a car accident. Nothing horrific, but I did suffer a broken sternum, swollen hand, and back pain. Amazing how a car accident can encourage those who are shunning you to suddenly change their attitude. My coworkers began talking to me again.
I was in therapy for a month and a half. The pain got so bad that for about 3 days I thought I would die every time I stood up. Around the three week mark I suddenly started feeling better.
The day I was released from doctor's care, October 1st,  I started working out. I would ride my exercise bike, do a 7 minute workout app on my phone, and do yoga. By December I had lost 10 pounds. I kept going, went to a nutritionalist, learned new ways to healthy up some of my favorite dishes, and bought a bike. As of today, I am down 30 pounds and my legs are solid.
Another thing I did was make a New Years resolution to be nice. I believe that most things that happen to you in life are because of decisions you have made. So I thought that maybe the harassment I endured was partially my own fault. I can be gossipy and can open myself up to coworkers as if they are friends. I had changed departments at work to get away from the negativity and I try not to talk too much to my new coworkers, rather keep them at arms length. I also try to not talk about people and this is sooooo hard but I am doing much better.
I decided also that I needed to put good karma out into the universe. I joined Habitat for Humanity as a volunteer in their coffee shop at the local restore. I figured I would do a good deed, meet new people and find a part of me that has been missing for a while, being able to be comfortable talking to strangers. I have made some friends there and have gotten out and done more things.
To recap what I am catching you up on
1. I have lost 30 pounds
2. I have made some friends so when my other friends are busy, I don't feel so upset

Something I didn't mention above, I may have met a good guy. We had our first date Saturday and went for lunch again today. Fingers crossed, I think this might actually go somewhere!

Run For Your Life Week 3

Week 3
Day 1- Today we did speed trials. They weren't really speed trials as they did not time us. They told us to run as fast as we could for about 1/8 mile and then take it easy on the way back. That lasted about the first two reps. By the third I barely made the 1/8 mile and did much more walking. By the last trip I think I walked most of it. I think if I could get my breathing under control I could go much further without having to walk. Good news is that I have energy now. Last couple of weeks I would come home and pass out. My body is getting used to the torture I am putting her through. Just six more weeks girl....we got this!

Day 2- I may have been too ambitious. I have been working out hard lately but the scale has shown no proof so I decided I needed to do a little more. I got up and did my 7 minute workout app which is definitely a full body workout! After work I went and rode several miles on my bike. I figured I was warming up my muscles and I rode on what is primarily flat land so it was in no way “intense”. Then I went to class where we were to run 1.5 miles. That turned into 1.67 miles and I did it in 23+ minutes. I was supposed to do the 2:1 run/walk ratio again but I am struggling with that. My breathing seems to be getting in the way of what my body wants to do. I need to practice breathing more. Sounds weird, right? Anyway, I ended up running about 1/3 of the trip. If I can continue making that, I will be happy. Eventually I want to get better, but right now if I can get that done without feeling like I am dying and my breathing down, I will have accomplished something. I also made sure I ran every hill we encountered. Luckily there were not many. I find it easier to run a hill than to walk it. Halfway up the last hill I thought about the last time I ran it and Darius yelling behind me “pump those arms girl!” so I started telling myself “Pump those arms! Just a little further! You can do this! YOU CAN DO THIS!” and although my mind wanted to stop running, my body made it up that hill. I made a huge mistake when I got home and did not soak in Epsom salt. My body is feeling the effects of the run today. It’s amazing how much your shoulders and back will hurt from pumping your arms. Whoda thunk?

Darius said I should get a massage that it would help with a lot of the tenderness I am feeling in my muscles. As I cannot afford to get them every week I have decided to use them as an incentive. Once I hit the half way mark, 4 ½ weeks, and again once I complete the 9 week session, I will allow myself that treat.

My trainers in Run Fit are awesome. Most days I think Darius is just trying to torture me, but he does it so enthusiastically! Sadist. I only work with him on Mondays when we do drills. Adele has been a much needed ally. I seem to have become one of her special projects and I won’t complain about that. She spends time with me every day. Sometimes she is trying to encourage me and other times I think she tries to distract me from what I am feeling with chit chat. Lauren is an “attagirl”. She yells out encouragement and high fives me for the smallest accomplishments. When I feel like I haven’t done well, she points out what I did do well. I lucked out signing up exactly when I did and getting these guys as my support system.

Homework -
This is the email Darius sent us for homework:

Good afternoon Runners!! Looks like everyone owned another week of RUN FIT!! Week 3 is in the books. My apologies form the miscalculation on Wednesday. But fortunately Amber had her Nike app running, and led everyone to the appropriate turnaround distance. Which ended up being a pretty noticeable spot. We ended going up to the CPCC culinary school. Near 7th street. I hope everyone continues to acknowledge and appreciate their progress. No matter how insignificant you may feel it is. Remember that is your OPINION, not a FACT. Facts are things that can be measured. For example, if week 1 you could barely fix dinner for yourself/family..and now you're able to run/walk 2 miles, shop, clean, cook, clean again, and have a nightcap. I'd say that's becoming stronger. Appreciate your journey. We're never in competition with anyone but our own former limitations. If nothing else, find motivation in the thought of digressing if you quit. I'm thankful to witness everyone dominating their own personal journey. And I think that everyone else that see's you, does as well. Even the one's that won't acknowledge your growth. Just keep smiling and striving to be a better you. 

HOMEWORK

WARM-UP:

               (dynamic stretching)

               Run/Walk: .4-.7mi

               Run: .7-1.1mi

WORKOUT: 

              Hill Repeats: 4-6

COOLDOWN:

                 Run/Walk:.4-.7mi

                 Run: .7-1.1mi

Have fun with your homework. A change of scenery is always good. For more than just your body, but your mental toughness as well. The more you force your body to adapt, the stronger/efficient you will become.

Darius didn't call me out in this email, but he was definitely talking about me. The part about you could barely fix dinner....yeah...that was me. We were talking about that after class the other day. I was saying that even though my running hasn't noticeably improved, that my body must be getting used to it because I don't want to just crash anymore after class.  I know he put that in here to emphasize that it really is an accomplishment.

This is not easy for me. I have never been a runner. No matter what, I'm gonna show up to class and do my best. I'm already thinking about taking this class again in the fall. When you're already the bottom, you can only go up.

Sunday- finally completed homework
I HATE DARIUS. HE IS THE ANTICHRIST.
For the warm up, I probably ran 2/3 of it. I ran 4 of the 6 hills. For the cool down, I probably walked 2/3 of it. Even after my Epsom salt bath, my calves are burning! So, the good news is that I made it through, I did better than my normal run/ walk pace, the bad news is that I am hurting and I'd be willing the the devil is going to have us running hills in class tomorrow.

Another week in the books!

Saturday, June 6, 2015

Run For Your Life Weeks 1 & 2

I have begun a new adventure in my life; an incredibly scary one for me. I have taken up running.

 Let me first start by saying that I am not now, nor have I ever been, athletically inclined. I have always enjoyed getting out and biking or hiking and I always enjoyed gym class but there is nothing I am great at. I often get winded, stitches in my side and will complain of sore muscles for days.

 Lately I have seen and felt my body rapidly aging. I creak like an old staircase when I stand up or get winded just walking up a flight of stairs. I was laboring under some misapprehension that if I worked out more, I would make things worse. And although that can sometimes be the case, strengthening muscles can help alleviate some of those aches as well. For example, there is no reason for me to feel like I have the hips of a 60 year old when a few hip exercises can strengthen the tendons and take the pain and popping away.

 I had been thinking about running for well over a year now but I have always found excuses not to: it’s too hot, I don’t have proper technique, I will be the worst in the class, and on and on. Finally I had a talk with myself. I said “Super awesome self, it is ok to try something and fail. It is ok to be the worst in the class. The only thing you have to do is try. Try and finish. You can be the last one to cross the line in a 5K. All you have to do is cross that line. Who knows, you may end up loving it, or making friends in the process, but putting yourself out there is way more than most people do”.

 So I went to Run For Your Life and I signed up for a Run Fit class. It is a one hour class, two days a week for nine weeks. That’s 18 hours. When you think of it that way, it is nothing.

 Week 1-

·         Day 1-day one was supposed to be on Memorial Day. Apparently too many people said that they would not be attending so they canceled the class. They did make up for it a week later by giving us all $10 gift certificates to the store.

·         Day 2- I was nervous and excited. I had hoped they would take it easy on us being our first day. Boy was I wrong. The constant runners would run a full 5K. Those of use that were not at that point would do two miles of walk/running. That was alternating three minutes of running and one minute of walking until we finished. I think mine went more like 3:1, 2:2, 30 seconds:2 ½, just walking. I would push myself here and there; “just jog to that bridge”, “just get down the hill, now around the bend, to the stairs” and finally “up that hill”. I wasn’t the last to finish but far from the first. I felt good about that. My body wasn’t so sure. It took nearly 5 days for the pain to die completely and it was 3 before I felt well enough to try physical exercise again.

Week 2-

·         Day 1-it was drizzling and part of me was hoping the class would be canceled. A big part of me. I don’t want to quit, but if it was canceled, it would be on them, not me. Unfortunately class was not cancelled although only about ½ of us showed up. On this day, Darius, our head trainer, tried to kill me. He had us running hills.  Not steep hills, thank God, but a city block with a very slight incline that culminated in what I think was about a 5% grade. In other words, just enough to kick my ass. Did he not hear where I said that I had never run a day in my life? He tried to break me and he almost succeeded. By the second trip up the hill I was almost in tears. Thankfully, Adele, one of the other trainers saw my discouragement and stayed with me until I finished all 6 trips. She kept pushing, “just run to that car”, “just to that tree”, “we are almost at the top”, “we are catching up with the next runner”, all words I needed to hear. Other classmates started trying to encourage me too, yelling “keep it up girl”. I did not expect that. Part of me expected to be back in high school with the top girls snickering about why I would even bother. I finished those 6 trips up and down the hill with a cramp in the back of my thigh and calves that were burning. That night I stretched and soaked in an Epsom salt bath and, miraculously, did not feel too sore the next day. Maybe Darius isn’t trying to kill me after all. Maybe, just maybe, he’s pushing me to limits that I would not dare push myself. I’m not going to tell him that of course!
·         Day 2-Mentally, I was in a better place than I was on Monday. I've begun telling people what I am doing and the encouragement has been amazing. I'm sure there are those who are waiting for me to quit. I will use that as a reason not to. We were to run/walk a mile today. I don't know if Darius was just going easy on us or if it was out of fear of the sky opening up when we were far out, but either way, I was ecstatic!  The ratio today was 2:1.  I maintained more of a 1:30 to 1:30 and finished at 14:22. I am proud of myself. My calves are burning to prove I put in work. I left class today full of energy, in a great mood, and with no tears. I might actually survive this. 

Homework- yes, we have homework too. Last week I was left off the email which said to run 4 hills. Had I received it, maybe I would have been more prepared for Monday's class. This weekend's homework was interval run/walking for 1.2 miles. I think I did more like 1.5 but it was mostly walking. I'm not upset. I got out there and I tried and that is half the battle. I saw Adele and the Run Far class when I arrived at the park. Seeing her motivated me to push myself. I would hate for her to run up behind me knowing I wasn't trying my hardest. 

 



Friday, September 26, 2014

Symphony

I am broken.  Like a violin with frayed strings. You can still play the instrument,  but it doesn't sound quite right.

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

Piggly Wiggly

I just read an article in a magazine that said that if someone at work picks on you about your nutrition,  basically implying that you are fat, that you should not eat at work. What B.S!!!!!! Why is it socially acceptable for people to discriminate against overweight people? And why do people act like it is the victim of the discrimination's fault?  Sometimes, some well meaning but completely ignorant people will offer advice to lose weight. Here's some advice...mind your damn business!