Somehow, I have managed to gain 7 pounds since Saturday. 7 pounds in 6 days. I thought maybe my doctor's scale was just different from mine, but when I stepped on my scale to confirm, I was saddened by the realization that I am not doing as much as I should be doing. After seeing it I asked my daughter if she wanted to go for a walk and she politely tells me no, that she went without me while I was gone. Great support system there.

The rest of my doctor's visit was great. I mean, apart from the whole laying on you back while he violates you thing. Lol My cholesterol is great, it's been over a year since I've smoked which made him happy, I'm eating healthier and working out more, my iron is good, and I don't have a cold or infection, just allergies. He was pleased and I am too.

My daughter had been accepted into middle college with the condition that she places into college level classes on the Accuplacer test. She didn't pass any of the 5 areas you have to pass. So now, if she doesn't get her butt in gear and study hard all weekend so she can try again on Monday, she will be stuck at her same ghetto high school she goes to this year. I can't do the studying for her. If she wants this, she has to put forth the effort.

I'm going hiking tomorrow with my ex boyfriend and two of our dogs. He keeps telling me that he's changed. This will be a good test. Will he come prepared with water for him and the dog as well as a light snack or will he still expect me to do everything. Will he start to whine about how far it is, how much longer, or his joints hurting or will he man up and just do it? We will find out tomorrow.

Valentine's Day came and went. It sucks when you're alone. It sucks more when others gush about how great their loved one is and what he/she did for them. I don't care about the holiday itself, I just want to find someone of my own. I rarely go on the internet dating sites anymore. If I am meant to be with someone, it will happen. I just need to learn to be patient. For now, I'm a little on the depressed side.

Feb 7th

Bad news this week. I gained a pound. Gasp! I can honestly say that I didn't do the best job eating this week but I did work my butt off. 3 hour hike, roller skating, hit the gym, and playing Just Dance all the days in between. I brought the bikes from my daughter's grandparent's house home yesterday. Each of them needs a new tire but after that, they should be ready to ride. Can't wait! Of course its supposed to snow this week so as soon as I get them ready to go, I won't be able to ride. Se la vie!

My cat is doing much better now after my daughter hit him with the car. He's still missing fur, but other than that, he's perfect. I did notice that he has become jumpy around cars now. I'm glad!

My sister added me as a friend on FaceBook. We haven't spoken in a year. I love my sister, but she constantly talks bad about my mom publicly and that bothers me. Its fine if she feels that way, but its not fine to air all the family's dirty laundry publicly. She had deleted me as a friend because she knew that my other sister or I had told Mom about things she was posting on FaceBook. I agreed to add her. I guess its time to move on.

I went to church for the first time in 15 years on Sunday. I often question religion and look at it as a way for people to explain the unexplained or a way to face death. There is something comforting though, in thinking that there is a greater purpose and a higher being. I do have trouble with the fact that someone that was a good person won't get to go to Heaven if they don't accept Jesus. What if they live in a remote village and they never even heard of Jesus? They would be condemned??? Seems a bit harsh.