Do you ever feel like you wish the whole world would just melt away? That's what I wished for tonight and I got it. And now I am feeling as if my heart and soul are being devoured by leeches sucking the life force out of me. I am desperate for company but trapped in a desolate design of my own making.
I have the most amazing boyfriend but after tonight he may change his mind about being with me. I am manic depressant. For the most part I am sunshine and happiness (manic), but then I have times when the sky starts to fall and the end of the world seems to be upon us. Today is one of those days. I take medicine to help me which works most of the time bit I can't just turn it off. I can't give you a reason for why I'm down tonight, I just am. Maybe the cat didn't run right to me when I got home. Maybe the power bill jumped up a whole dollar. Maybe I'm having a bad hair day (which I am by the way). The point is, because there is no specific reason why I'm sad, I have no way of knowing how to fix it. Hopefully I will wake up tomorrow and be a happy girl again.
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